As the Kidney Turns

I have not posted recently as I have been focusing on myself. Depression is an interesting animal. I wake up and feel happy. I go throughout my day and I feel happy. I go to bed and I feel happy yet I am diagnosed with severe depression.

Also, my depression is due to childhood trauma and was triggered by my kidney transplant. I prefer not to get into details but they will come out as I heal and learn to work through my recovery. To clarify one thing, the childhood trauma I experienced was NOT due to any type of physical or sexual abuse.

Kidney News

My kidney is kind of in a holding pattern. Not doing bad but not quite where it should be. When I received test results from last month I kind of spiraled downward emotionally. My appointment last week reassured me that there is nothing to worry about at this time. In fact my doctor said many things (good) can happen during the lengthy recovery.

Typical recovery time for a kidney transplant is 12 to 18 months.

Gastroparesis Troubles

Another aspect that is negatively affecting my recovery is dealing with gastroparesis. From day to day my body does not process food and drink the same way. This includes medication I take for my kidney.

I have an appointment this week to see a specialist who can hopefully help me get it under control.

Side Effects

After my transplant I dropped to a low weight (for me) of 271 pounds. I am now up to 291. My food intake is much lower than before surgery however I am on steroids are causing he weight gain. I need to start exercising more bit once again the gastroparesis makes this a challenge as it is triggered when stimulating my stomach muscles.

I appreciate everyone's continued support!